i here to seek for the best of me!!!!

i am only normal human come to this world try to seek for the true life of me! If i wish time can come back i will hope that my mother will not married with my dad although i will not be born to this world. i rather being to child in africa, hungry for food, they have no stress and life is keep going looking for food, or i even rather being a tall tall three that will not bother the other and keep growing everyday. I love my mother so much, i got nothing that can pay her back as rebate because all parent will only to the best for thier own child they are not being selffish to the community but all they do all is for the children goods! I will hate my self that i will never show her that my best in study, i dont ever show her an any A in studies , just dont know why i cant do it. My upsr, My pmr, My spm. but i wonder why her never scold me for getting bad result in all the ezam, why? why other parent will do so? but not my mom? my mom is getting older and older but i am very affraid to lose her in future, i had no any close relative, i will be alone!!! but thing must comes one day!!! when my mom got sick i feel so dark and cant even got a light that acompany me along to walk with me! why!!! my friend you cant never ever just knowing to step front for future but remember to look behind they will always be the one keep support you! love you love! pls show you love to them as your lover! dont left them behind, care them as there care for you when you were small!!! i Belived is not hard to tell your boyf or girl f 'i love you' but try to tell your mom or even your dad!!! i guess this is the best gift ever than paying money!!!
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happy birthday mummy !!!!!